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Dealing with AngerWho Are We When We're Angry?By Michele RosenthalDealing with anger is difficult when you're wrapped it its clutches. In my own experience, I've found two dominant sides to the psychology of the anger coin: Fear and Motivation.First, I have to apologize to my mother. I do apologize to my mother... often, now that I'm healed, for all of the abuse she absorbed during the years I suffered from PTSD. She is an amazing, strong and wonderful woman. If it weren't for her love, patience and understanding we would have stopped speaking 20 years ago... there were many days, weeks and months I couldn't be around her without snickering, snarling and sneering. You have to understand something about my mother (and maybe this applies to someone in your support network, too): She is eminently fun, happy and approachable. But that's not how I saw her when I was dealing with anger and suffering from PTSD. Instead, she was the villain and I the victim of her "Let's get you some help" anthem. She saw me struggling and wanted to talk - all the time. She saw me hurting and wanted to reach out - endlessly. She was tireless in her desire to find some way to lead me to peace. And for that I hated her. For that altruistic goal I unleashed upon her all my fury. Why? Because the pain in which I lived was intense, and I only wanted to be left alone in it. I did not want to share, explore or study it. I was afraid that dealing with anger or doing any of those things would tip the delicate balance I had constructed and everything would fall to pieces. I was afraid going into those dark places, ideas and moments would suck me in and I'd be lost forever. I was afraid I'd be overwhelmed by the pain and the memories. I was afraid the process of healing would make me weak. I was afraid the trauma would win if I lifted it up and exposed it to the light. (I was wrong about each of these things, by the way.) In order to insulate and preserve myself, I lashed out at anyone who tried to get into the trenches to help me while dealing with anger. Most often, that was my mom, Eileen. When we research the psychology of anger, however, this behavior becomes completely understandable. Our good friend Dr. Harry Mills, in his article "Psychology of Anger" explains that one of the functions of anger (after its use to respond to perceived pain) is as a substitute emotion. He writes, "By this we mean that sometimes people make themselves angry so that they don't have to feel pain. People change their feelings of pain into anger because it feels better to be angry than it does to be in pain. This changing of pain into anger may be done consciously or unconsciously." Perfect. Because of course, I didn't sit down one day and decide to be angry at Eileen. But all of her wanting to help and suggestions of things to do threatened the security of how I felt I was coping! So, rather than dealing with anger and becoming vulnerable, I became enraged. It makes so much sense when Mills explains: "Being angry rather than simply in pain has a number of advantages, primarily among them distraction... Part of the transmutation of pain into anger involves an attention shift - from self-focus to other-focus." "Anger thus temporarily protects people from having to recognize and deal with their painful real feelings; you get to worry about getting back at the people you're angry with instead. Making yourself angry can help you to hide the reality that you find a situation frightening or that you feel vulnerable." Ahhhh, Yes. The flip side of this negative anger perspective, however, is quite positive. In his article "Motivational Effects of Anger" Mills writes: "On the positive side, anger creates a sense of power and control in a situation where prior to anger these positive, motivating feelings did not exist." Bingo! That's exactly how we can use the anger we feel. That is, ultimately, how I used my anger. Two years ago I was so sick of myself, my memories, my PTSD, my trauma - EVERYTHING - that I got angry at all of that, instead of the usual suspects. I got angry my life was passing by in this horrible fog of pain. I was angry that the trauma was winning. I got angry because I was always angry. And so I took all of that angry energy and unleashed it on the trauma and PTSD themselves. We all know how powerful anger feels... Imagine using it to create a new future instead of lashing out at the past or destroying the present. |
Michele Rosenthal is a survivor of trauma and chronic-extreme PTSD. She the founder of a PTSD organization, Heal My PTSD, LLC, which advocates for PTSD education, awareness, treatment, and healing.
Here is Michele's excellent blog. Contact her via email at parasitesof.themind@yahoo.com. |
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